I was, for over a decade, on a quest for the miraculous. Went looking for shamans, priests, wanderers, and madmen. Spoke to the rich and mighty, walked the paths of those who got lost, went from hedonism to stoicism, made money and lost money, made a fool of myself, fell in and out of love, … Continue reading Nirvana
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How to measure the depth of a connection? Watch how your best hidden insecurities come to the surface to suffocate you at the thought that someone might see them. Your most horendous fears and firey desires burst out of you in a magnificent whirl. You feel like you've come alive and shot yourself dead a … Continue reading Untitled
I Now Know
I now know why the sunsets are glowing more than ever and they pour themselves inside me like never before. I know why the clouds seem to be silkier and the skies are brighter, taller but in so many ways so much more caring. I know why my heart is screaming after a voice that … Continue reading I Now Know
2022
"My passions and hobbies are not a quotation - I know why I love what I love.""I am ever-changing. Every part of me is evolving and while I feel in some days stagnant, I know there is growth even in that stagnation. I just can't recognize it yet.""I can endure pain in all its forms.""I … Continue reading 2022
Samsara
It's an early Saturday and my slightly opened eyes, stare at this blotch of color that changes its shape every now and then. The sun painted my walls in a deep cadmium yellow.My mind is restless for weeks now. It travels back and forth between memories, long-lost dreams, people I have met or I am … Continue reading Samsara
November Thought
The awakened being is a complete stranger to the world.An upsetting force that creates controversies, falls over the edge in almost everyone's eyes but its own.Here to be swallowed up. To break and fall and live with all the misery and love that a soul can take.To run wild towards dreams; to be sometimes, careless … Continue reading November Thought
Life is Now!
Yesterday, while I was ruminating on the real value of wealth, my mind introduced me to scenes of my childhood. Glimpses of a life where I was constantly overflowing with joy and prosperity. And mind you, as a child born immediately after the communism fall, I had a very late exposure to the colorful wraps … Continue reading Life is Now!
How to release old pain
"If you could say it in words, there would be no reasons to paint. " - Edward Hopper One thing I've noticed during some painting sessions, is the avalanche of thoughts. Good ones too, but most of them are deeply disturbing. Memories, conversations, circumstances that have affected me more or less. They resurface as if … Continue reading How to release old pain
About All Sorts of Loves
The world ends, numerous times, for each of us. It crashes and sinks under waves of agony. At the bottom, in a dense, ocean-like darkness, it catches glimpses of what would mean a new breath. And that alone is enough for a new beginning. The beauty of it all is the strong contrast. The paradox. … Continue reading About All Sorts of Loves
7 Lessons I’ve Learned in 2019
“I will tell you why we have these extraordinary minds and souls, Miss Whittaker," he continued, as though he had not heard her. "We have them because there is a supreme intelligence in the universe, which wishes for communion with us. This supreme intelligence longs to be known. It calls out to us. It draws … Continue reading 7 Lessons I’ve Learned in 2019